Paulo Coelho - V.D.D.

“In a world where everyone struggles to survive whatever the cost, how could one judge those people who decide to die?”

God speaks to me through the books he puts in my hands. And I am forever grateful that This particular book has been placed in my possession. “I’m just a failed suicide.” -This simple sentence — I believed exemplified exactly how I’ve been feeling for a long time now. But as I typed out that sentence and thought about its meaning and its connection to my life, I can’t help but feel as if I wasn’t “just a failed suicide”. God blessed me with life so that I could live. In my many attempts and desires to make ends meet, I can’t help but feel as if I neither won the fight nor lost it. Although I have not finished reading this book, it manages to clarify and ease my every nerve. Not only does this book reconnect my relationship with myself, my heart and my mind, but it helps reconnect a lost line between me and God. “She hates the love she had been given because it had asked for nothing in return, which was absurd, unreal, against the laws of nature.”

It's official UPDATE

So to update on my last blog, the long awaited camera is only days away from officially being mine mine mine! :D


San Diego from Aug 5 to Aug 11.. made a deal with my parents and they agreed to pay the rest of the camera off since I really want to bring the camera on our vacation and I won't have enough money before then. Gonna pay them back full with my paycheck on the 19th of August. Hopefully, just buying them the wii fit would get me by [: But, a deal is a deal. Hopefully it isn't over 150 more that's needed. We'll see though ! :D


More payments for summer [in no particular order]:

+ camera
+ pay back parents
+ wii fit
+ disneyland pass from Costco
+ ipod adapter for car
+ sister's roller blades
+ books! books! books! *Any book suggestions?

It's official

It's official, I am holding off on my Disneyland Pass. I am saving my money and have made it a summer goal, although I might not be able to accomplish it during the summer, to buy my own Nikon SLR by September of this year. The latest to buy it would be the first week of October. This camera means more to me than a Disneyland pass. Unfortunately, I won't be able to join the many friends and extended family members while they take night trips to Disneyland or California Adventure. I guess for now, I'm content with a possible free two-fer ticket every month.. if/when permitted by my cousin. I'm just gonna stick to asking for a free ticket when birthdays and major events come up. It'll be okay. After I get my SLR the next item on my checklist will be that Delux pass [:

The camera's $550 without tax. So my aim is $600 by late September/early October. Im saving! saving! saving!

Oh, and word on the street has it, that there's a possible SD, SF, Yosemite vacation coming up the last weekend of August. And either a Hawaii/Alaska/Canada cruise trip July of next year. I'm excited! [:

Summer love on crutches <3

Summer has revealed itself once again and already there has been so much going on. My first job, grown up nieces, learned how to drive stick shift, family bonding, friends. My life at home has its ups and downs, its dull moments and its exciting moments and sometimes I just want to move right back out but nevertheless.. this is my home. And there really is not a better feeling than being surrounded by an endless amount of love, support, privacy and real food [:

So far, this summer I have accomplished the following:
+ getting my first job: Welcome to Swirleez, Self-served frozen yogurt [:
+ learned how to drive stick shift
+ watched Transformers 2
+ helped pay for gas
+ shopped
+ cleaned my entire closet ; 2 blck bags of clothes, 1 blck bag of purses, 4 trips to the garbage

Tressa Vi; 2 yrs old
she's growing up way too fast

because of this puzzle, i learned that I have no patience at all.
gotta separate the long piece from everything else -_-

TA DA!
and the injuries never stop..
back on these babies again <3
ohh, how i've missed my toned arms
crutch pair #2
it's all about that elevation, ya heard?

but I can always count on my dogs to keep me company [:

It's so sad, the front desk ER nurse at Kaiser already knows my face. I'm not going to lie though, having the top x-ray technician of Kaiser Bellflower as my Uncle has its benefits. So in conclusion, if I follow all instructions without hesitation I should be all healed and ready to go by this weekend. Otherwise, it'll take about 2 weeks to heal. But, knowing me... -___- the process has the potential to go who knows where. Seriously sucks especially since I had to call 2 days off of work this week.. on Thursday and Friday. I need to be better by Monday or else. And to add to all that work stuff -- my manager's re-doing the work schedule cause this other girl that works there complained and wanted more hours since she only works Saturdays and Sundays. Blah! Maybe. Just Maybe. if she'd do her job RIGHT, she would get those hours. Stupid girl.. doesn't know how to close properly...makes me have to get to work an hour and a half earlier just to prepare and clean up the store.