It was when I stopped hurting that I became happy. It was when the memory stopped reappearing that I became responsible. It was when the pain became bearable that I started to accept reality. It's only when I allow myself to be vulnerable to the mistakes of others that I become the person I never wanted to be. -- Free write -- When someone cheats, it isn't because the one being cheated on has done something wrong, it is because the one cheating is too scared and weak-minded to be able to say no. When one cheats, the obvious reasoning is that one is selfish. We don't make you cheat. You just don't know what you want. And so while you're on your way in figuring out what you want, we are the ones dealing with your consequences, your mistakes. It's a personal problem. -- When involved with someone, your worth and your value are always a concern. Do you deserve this? Do you deserve that? It's always a question. Was I just another girl to you? Did I make no impact? Did I leave no mark? You were nothing I ever had expected. You were nothing like him. You listened. You respected. You were considerate. You were honest. You understood. -or so I thought you did. Maybe you were just looking out for me. or Maybe you were just looking out for yourself. You thought it was best - but for whom? Me or You? It was a short amount of time and I don't know why I'm acting like this or feeling this way - but it is what it is. Right? You've been aware of the type of person I am since day 1. Don't tell me you didn't know. Maybe I'm feeling this way because of the way I see you handling the situation [ if this is even considered a situation ]. It makes me feel like I was almost nothing. It makes me question my own worth, my own value. I thought I was worth everything you came with - but maybe it's just best that you left in the fashion that you did. It was a good ride. It was a good experience - one that I will definitely remember always. It taught me and showed me what else is out there. You opened a new door. You've allowed me to accept others. You've shown me that if just given a chance, one could prove you wrong. You've proven to me that good things DO happen to those who wait. You are my living evidence that... Sometimes, you don't need a rainbow to be lucky.
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Retreat in Big Bear is this weekend. Yay for a car full of AWESOME people! Wsup Manyoucall, Byronface, Jo2theflo, Ishnamedkarl & K_weeezy. We're awesome.
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